When Mistakenly I was Declared....Female. /Part 2

أنا من مواليد الثمانينات.... تغيرت اشياء كثيرة منذ ذاك الوقت حتى الالفية الثانية..لكن لا ازال  افتقد تلك الايام

الصدق...ماجيت على هالوقت لكن الاغنية ترددت كثيرا في مسامعي من عماتي وقتها الكبار

اليومين تعتريني حالة اشبه بالانفساخ من شرنقة ة

When I Mistakenly Declared a Female...!!!!

One of the Things that really pisses me all the time is my sister !!! I mean ..I dunno till when we are suppose to live in this fucking war! I am almost  33 years old now, and she as well just reached her 40's! ...and we are still acting like if we were 5, and 7 years old Kids!!

Seriously, I admit this with a deep pain inside my heart.. this thing is pissing me off every time and I dont know how to stop this Bullying or even make it Less!!

 I really hate those aggressive people who have this negative energy, when they Spread it all over your life and your mood!

Listening to my Music now, and trying to Ignore the fact that Im so Fucked up and Pissed off!!

I mean sometimes I just dont wanna do anything, I Just wanna live in PEACE and thats it.....All this will Goes away Once she POP UP into my Quite Universe... and Ruin everything that was Beautiful !!

Like wise, People of this Kind, Bullying you Emotionally, Physically, and Mentally are no Worth to be kept next to You.....

I Know that coz when I went away....I was so RELAXED!!

When I mistakenly declared a : female! Part3

My pride,

My ethics, 

My hopes,

My shattered heart,

I dunno if I'm gonna be able to get outta this stupid closet!!!

LGBTSS Terminology

Transgender: someone whose self-identification or expression challenges traditional notions of “male” and “female.”

Transgender people may include: transsexuals, crossdressers, drag queens and kings, gender queer, and others who cross or transgress traditional gender categories

Transsexual: Someone whose gender identity is different from their gender identity at birth. Transsexuals often undergo hormone treatments and gender reassignment surgeries to align their anatomy with their core identity, but not all desire or are able to do so.

Gender Identity: What we perceive and call ourselves, though most people develop a gender identity that matches their birth-assigned sex. Others, however, experience their gender identity as different or separate from their birth-assigned sex. 

Gender Expression: Everything we do that communicates our sex/gender to others: clothing, hair styles, mannerisms, way of speaking, roles we take in interactions, etc. 

Biological Sex: A system set by the medical establishment usually based on reproductive organs or number of certain chromosomes in the DNA.

Gender: The social construction of masculinity and femininity in a specific culture, involving gender assignment, gender roles, gender attribution, and gender identity.

Cisgender: Someone who has a gender identity that agrees with their societally recognized sex

Leave me wasted, Life is just another Balloon Filled with Lies!!

When I Mistakenly Declared as a Female! Part-2-

Guess what....I've spent more than 32 years navigating for a real personality that most likely describe me as a human being...I guess..I failed.!
I admit it, I am the most weird person I have ever met...I dont even want to get to know me if I was another person but not me...I dunno...I am so strange when it comes to a personality....I like humor, I do have a sense of humor...not a witty-one...an evilish- dark mean one...but also I am fun to be with...I hate my seriousness,I mean I could be stiff like a wooden baseball pat If I dont wanna show feeling! I am flattered when Younger individuals think I am in the same age of theirs....No one would give a doubt about how old I look...If not 22,it must be 25 based on my seriousness!!

I still struggle in the way I love to wear my clothes,and what style..I mean...I like the masculine cuts, pants with straight cuts, and a Suite! I Love to wear a Jeans pant,with a white-shirt and a Brown Blazer..! Im just like that simple! I love it this way!
People still have that huge problem in addressing me like a person or what should they call me...a Sir or a Ma'am! Im neither one of'em and I Love living as a HYM! not a He nor a She! Its a huge life decission to live like an anonymous person, no gender identity nor categorization..Just a person in the dark side of this life...

To be honest, I am too afraid to be changing to the (other side) like to be stuck in this shitty male zone...! god! The only thing i eva wanted from this part was to settle down and get married to a girl and live happily eva after nothin more!!!
I still hate living in this feminine field, coz I am much stronger than (others) and others find me so sexy and appealing!

Uh!
Life can be so hard if you just let it go on..I lost control in some point and now, All I do is sittin down, rollin and smokin up...! thats aint me I know but what to do in a world of shattered hopes!!



Leave me wasted, Life is just another Balloon Filled with Lies!!