I'M BACK!!
Well, I have banded this place for a while, i have been fighting on the ground..I couldn't write at that time..
well, I am 39 officially. and I am holding a male ID Officially...
But,
I am not in the home town any more....I Moved!
I am Honoured to introduce my new self..
I am Leo (Mish3al) the Light Catcher and I am 39 years old, Still Handsome and Still Single!
Damn I mean I am still a FREE BIRD who cant be in a relationship for that long!
I live in Europe now.
I kinda missed that hot weather in Saudi Arabia and that Dusty winds...that Humidity nights and the sneaking to my girl friend's house.
I stopped being a (drag queen) for the sake of mom. Because Mom Passed away Last JULY, Last year,2018.
and it was the worst feeling ever!!
I Stop the tries to please anyone after all, coz i did it ONLY for her sake , and since she is not there anymore, i thought that its time to live freely and openly in public as me the MALE VERSION OF (MASH) and taking the risk of facing the whole family...Or that they will hate me afterward because I came out that fucking closet which i didn't like at all....!!!
Any ways,
It has been many years since I wrote in here,,,, And it feels weird yet.... Exciting coz I kinda missed me... Seriously...These passing years, I was a different person...Changed a lot and Done loads to survive..
Lets talk about now.
Ma Own Flat,
A Big change...
A Huge Effort to adapt as well, but the reality is:
I Cant Live there any more
I do Not have anyone left after mom to support me, only my auntie and She is the only reason that would make me return back to (at least return the favours I have got because of her love and beklief)
I really Miss Mom..
And as me now. I am trying to just BREATH.. to be able to adapt more..
Yesterday I decided to STOP my Thoughts of going back to my Past where I had few happy moments...I HAVE TO STOP THIS AND FOCUS ON MY PRESENT...MY NOW!
Ma lovely diary,
I Missed ya too...
and will be back soon..
until then,
Gusto Mucho
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