BdooN Saalfah

Ok,elyoOom Moody MoOod (Legafah)..... I woke up to smoke my head off-as usual....And I start singing the stone head song..and now I am remembering few memories....



Damn! I wanna have succha girl who strip for me...I wannna have succha party like this...And Damn!! I Need it NOW!!

بوية كويتية وش تحس فيه؟

طيب...ابي اعرف وش الهدف من الصور؟
ان كانت منتشرة وهم مايدرووون فهنا المشكلة
ومع تحفظاتي بالنسبة للشقرالا انه فيه وحده كنها مملوحة شوي
بس البوية (رغم كرهي لهالكلمة) ماتدري وش الطبخة
تقييم سريع من اول لقطات؟
سلامااااااات كل من هب ودب قال انا بوية؟
ولاحظت سبحان الله ان اغلب الملياناااااات يصيرن تومبوي!!! ليه؟
طيب ليه اللبس خايس كذه؟ يعني اخبر ان الكويت مكان برافو عليه للتسوق وغير كذه الشعب الكويتي يلبس من احسن الانواع لانه شعب ذويق....(دلوووول يمديك علي بس) خخخخخخ

المهم...
الديكور حق البيت ماعجبني..لبسها ماعجبني وهالثلاث اللي وحده منهم خويتها كنه فيه احد عجبني للمحة بسيطة وبعدين غيرت رأيي
الصدق؟
سلامااااااااااات يابووووووو!!!!!1

الحين ابي افهم شي واحد...وش هالتجحلط؟

(يؤ معصب انا اليوم) كييييييييييفي

Mashing!!

I woke up today.....Not in a great mood, Coz I dunno how I slept!! Last night was a Disaster in all its meaning..... One of ma friend dated her gf in ma House...and ou bet!! I Dunno how could she be Un-thankfull...I mean...She got the Great room ever....MINE!! with 52-Inch Big screen TV..Dimmed Light, Scented candles, My Wii Game, and Guess what...a Free 5 stars Service from my maids.. beside (exotic fruit Salad- and the dinner)!!! Imagine that!!! all that Nice gestures, coz I felt that her gf needs to be treated good for at least once in her life time..!! Beside It didnt work fine yesterday between me and (ma lil angel)...I Dunno.. It just didnt work out...and I stayed alone.....

I have this mood and Sharing it for this Friday..I just dont get it...why Am still single...Is it only me? Who find its hard to start over again? Or they are just so Blind to notice how Great I am..!!!
I just feel that (ma heart will go on...and On).....(So damn old song I know....But this is the only Music that make ma heart get that strange feeling called Love!)..
I do Know how to draw, and I wud luv to draw the one (Naked)!! I just wanna draw her beauty in a painting...that I would look at it every single morning without getting this special female...with me!!!


Uh!! Ma heart is aching....I LUV Sarah Shahi....Aka Carmen.... I Just feel that her eyes are telling so many-un told stories....I realized ma self when watching any episode of the Old L Word.....I am just looking into her eyes!!
She reminds me of you...My Mysterious lady.... the Warmth in your eyes...The Depth of Love that I feel whenever I wished to have You More.....


And when we drawn apart.....


Like what happened here, I was lost without you....I need to have someone who posess ur features in another human shape....I just need to Move on....I wanna feel alive again....but with you in my heart and for real...!!!
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I miss our (love making moments...)..... That love that linger in me and hold my breath.... taking me within layers into the deepest part in your body.. I missed everylittle part in you... I missed being naughty!!

I miss watching this scene with a soft female next to me....


I guess Life is just another reharsal......!!!!





Lets go on!!!

Ashes to Ashes, Dust to Dust !!

A girl whom she used to be a member in net log : Boya_Damaar.. Has Died in a car accident Yesterday.. I Dunno the girl in person, but through what I saw, a Big Shock was Possesing every body who knew her.. I Got a call from ma best friend telling me (thou I knew earlier) and she was like OMG! Have ya ever thought of that? And I didnt reply.... Ok...I was this close to tell her: Excuse me! Ur talking to aperson who went to the morgue twice, and in the 3rd time he was helping the manager moving one body from hid bed to the morgue!! and hello!! I was the one who asked to check on his face before they push him to the Big Creep Fridge!! I Was the one who saw that look in his empty eyes, and pretended to be strong and went further to closing his eyes for the last time!!!! Now the question that is popping in my mind... Aah yer7amha as a person...But what is the reaction afterward? Her accounts? Her emails..Her Gf's?! What about her GF? Is she gonna remember her lets say...hmmm five months? Is she gonna cry whenever she missed her? Or she gonna forget about her? I Dont wanna be just another Tomboy who died and every body knows her name...this is insane... Guys Be Honorable!! Just say allah yer7amha w yer7am mawta el muslmeen...DOnt go further!! The question again.. I know its a rude thing to ask about..specially ennoh el moot loh 7orma bas.. The Gf,, Is She gonna remember her as a person or she will just say umm she was a good tomboy.. a good kisser, allah yer7amha!! I wud bet that this is the reaction...I dunno why! And this wueston is really bothering me the most.. ldarjat ennoh when I look to the friendship requests..the many request I use to get every day...with all the different types of comments and demands... I keep asking my self...Is there any body who wud remember me If am gone? As I remember This dear person who died in a car accident too in Kuwait two years ago, Or my GF who died in another cruel car accident in the most hateable city I've ever known..-Riyadh-..Which I still hate its U'layaa street.. and I cant stand passing in it after what happened..I still get her face in my mind whenever I reach KKIA in Riyadh..and where ever I cruise in riyadh!! I still dare an girl whom she know me that she wont compete her kisses,,No one will... and I still believe that no one wud treat me like she was doing,, I just wanna know (nowadaysm GF's) are they thinking of that issue? Are they gonna remember their Butchy Lovers or they just gonna move on l2an el 7ai ab8a men el mayet? and if the answer was (Go On..)

PLEASE, TEACH ME HOW TO DO SO!!!

Coz I Couldnt!!

allahum er7am mawtana, w mawta el muslmeen, allahum er7amna etha 9erna ela ma 9aroo elaih..ta7t el toraab w en8a6a3 el 3amal wal ahal wal a97ab..allahum thabbet'hom 3nd el so2al w erfig behom.. fa8g rodaw elaik..allahum e'3selhom mn thnobohom w 5a6ayahom bel ma2 wel thalj wel bard, b3adad man gal ameen w b3adad mn gal ya ar7am al ra7meen...

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"In the sweat of thy face shalt thou eat bread, till thou return unto the ground; for out of it wast thou taken: for dust thou art, and unto dust shalt thou return."

A Trip To The Morgue!!

The Morgue as for most of us know, is the place we visit Once in lifetime that when we are completely dead…before we go to our last place to rest…waiting for the dooms day…where each one of us will get his punishment, or rewards…

This is not our issue now,coz if i want to discuss it from religious view it wud take lotta time to explain it...any ways, it was my 2nd visit to the morgue.... The first time i went there...The fridges were empty... the autopsy room was tidy clean but yet..the smell of the air was like a heavy smelly air, put his mind to die.. and the thickness of that air..was a mixture of nephtaline and a smell of medications and cleaners...!!

In the first time I went there, No dead bodies, nor any fatal incident was reported...three days after, Yesterday.... I was sitting in the office, bored like hell and trying to pretend that I am interested in the bull-shitty-assed-story that My collegue was telling me.. I was trying to stop my self imagining me-screaming on her face- that- shut the hell up ou bitch and do some work!!

My phone rang, I answered in a tone (that lost its sense of anthsiasm)..

-Ya... (I meant : how dare ya call at this early morning disturbing my sleep)!!
- Solo?! (a male's voice)
- urr yeah..Who is this?
- Thats Me.. Phantom Phreak!!
-Damn! I Cudnt recognize ya'r voice!!
-Am havin a cold.. listen, there is a death incident in the hospital.. they called for 2 officers from the moruge and they want two doctors.. Do you wanna join me in this exciting tour?
-well, yeah..Shitt!! Yes of course, when? (I stood up and start locking my pc, wearing my converse and check the time..to see if I can use (coffee break) Excuse..>!!
-Now.. Come Now...I will be waiting in the basement....
-Ok, will hit the road now... cya!

I took my keys, my sun glasses and my ID Card...My Collegue looked up while am standing..and said:
-solo, where are you heading to?
-uh....am.... Am going to bring up some files from the morgue..
-OMG! Can I come with you?
-No!! I Looked back to her trying to be as calm as I am usually....
-I mean.... I would like to take you but its kinda secret project..the boss doesnt want any one to know about..and If u go with me, i am sure that every one will know the most exact details..without meaning it of course!!!
Plus... (I opened the office door...).. I watered your plants for two weeks as if they were my own babies...you owe me at least..!

Hrrying up towards the main gate, I burst into the jam of people that spread all along the street..
I drove the car to the next block, parked it and ran into the building...where phantom phreak ma friend was waiting for me...holding a white approan and a white coat.. I took them and wore them in our way to the 4th floor as the two doctors who should accompany the corpe!!

Minutes of thrill looking to the elevator buttons raising into the fourth floor, and fixing up my out fit to look as profissional as I can...we walked in the hall ways till that room D-537 .. there was 2 indian Nurses who worked in the mourgue as (assistants).. we entered the room.. there was an old man sitting there in his side of the room.. looking terrefied,, the one who died, is younger than him in many years...and he is scared of those Indians who pushed an ironic bed, covered with brown leather to take the corpe away...

They did their job, while we were standing there...shocked of how cheap our lives wold be...!!
and we shared the elevator with that corpe that once used to carry a name for a person!!
Strange feeling Is posessing me..I feel like I am invisable, I cant talk but yet I cant feel a thing!
I was thinking of, Are they going to do the same when I am dead?