29....finally!!

I'm 29 years old now...

Finally...!!

Its not like that I've been waiting for it...or so fucking longing to have it...

Life is about...getting hurt, love again, and Return to be lonley!!

I hate it.. I really hate it when you just feel your self HOPELESS...

When you find your self valurnable towards lil thingies that you might not give a fuck about when you were younger.... In fact...I dont feel that I am getting older...I just feel that I've reached me....Known me more than ones' else..Yet....I dunno Me..!!

I Miss Me...

I Miss the Joyful person I used to be,when life matters at that time...

When I feel Alive, and overwhelmed in away that I dunno how could it be...

I am single...

for the (million time)

Not ma mistake..

Not her mistake (thou part of it...was hers)

I am single who lost any reason to be alive again....!!

Today...Am blogging from a friend's house,using her laptop..

everybody disappeare, am the only one who is sitting here..feeling Numb...

I feel jealous..

I feel it coz when You like someone and you see your best buddy (ymoon) in this sick & So fucked up way...while he is taken... cause ya this feeling of (why do I bother)!!

I am compatitive, but not in people's feelings...

If she like him...then fine with me!!

If she is just being acting like usual (with all her friends) then its fine with me...

I am Juat bothered...

I hate this

I hate this fucking meyana zaayda!!

like when you like someone and your buddy knows, but yet he flirts with her!!

I dont feel like discussing it right now...

But I'm just trying to repress this stupid feeling am having toward her, acting like a Guest.. nor like a friend... I hate It ~~!!

The thing that kills you inside that you dont even know wats going inside her mind...

taking care of your buddy... makes ya think that there was something special about to happen..

I just wanna be comfortable...at least ONCE

Ma weakness is...That I Care to MUCH!!

FUCK IT....!!!!

Why Am Writing this in the first place....

Till next ma Visit... Hopefully 29 would be Something Different!!

At

Least

I............ Hope!!

Leave me wasted, Life is just another Balloon Filled with Lies!!